July 18, 2012

.Genderless.Episode.19.


Who is it that I’ve so easily evolved in to?

I stare for hours into the mirror hanging loosely from my bedroom door.

Yet I cannot spy any difference.

Not one.

Does that beg the question that the changes have only taken an internal toll?

I’m pasting each memory to the forefront of my mind.

Examining each one to find the exact moment it leeched inside me and caused such a drastic transformation.

But all I find are more and more examples of each change of mind.

I sprawl myself out in bed.

And betwixt a plethora of pillows and sheets I stumble across an ultimatum.

That maybe all this looking is forlorn from a proper examination.

Maybe.

It’s not the recent events that were the catalyst of all my change.

But a dose of adrenaline that had simply sped up the process.

Was I always changing?

Is there no rut that I could fall into?

Just a mental comfort of the current pace that fools me into thinking nothing is moving when in fact everything is still making its mark upon me.

And I’m just too blind to notice?

A tap at the window.

A mumbled “Come in.”

Eyes too tired to even open; I am only left to hear the creak of the opening window, the light footsteps that sneak across the floor, and the familiar scent that drifted passed my nose as her warm body slipped into my bed.

“Tired?” She asks quietly and I shake my head.

“Just deep in thought.” I respond before opening my eyes and seeing her beautiful face.

She was dressed quite peculiarly.

Attractive.

She looks at me a moment.

“Want to be?”

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