July 6, 2012

.Genderless.Episode.13.


“You attend church?” Charlie asks and I laugh.

“Do you?”

He chuckles, “Touché.”  

I turn back to watching the stars for a moment.

“You ever tried counting them? The stars?”

Charlie laughs, “I’ve tried a couple times, but I always seem to lose count. Either that or the sun comes up before I’m done.”

Already losing count myself, I slip out a cigarette.

“Bad habit.” He teases and I stick my tongue out at him playfully before putting it to my mouth.

“Like I can argue, I supply the lighter.” He continues with a smirk and lights my cigarette for me.

I inhale and hold the smoke hostage for a moment, my thoughts slowing and granting me some peace.

Exhale.

“I wish I could just count the stars forever. Never have to go home.”

He looks at me.

“Sometimes I wish the same.”

We look at each other for a moment.

My lips quiver.

He stands up and stretches.

“I’m going to go for a walk.” He says and I start to get up.

“Alone if possible.”

I stop and look up at him.

“Oh… okay…”

Sitting back down as he strides off, I’m left to my own whispering thoughts.

Did I miss my chance?

Was it even a chance?

Fuck.

I found myself simply staring at the cherry eating away at the tip of my cigarette. Lost in both thought and emotion.

My stomach hurt.

I flick away my cigarette, hearing a thoughtful sizzle as it hit the dewy grass.

Leaning back I sigh.

And start counting.

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