Monologue of Faybel,

I lay beneath these crushing stars with naught but a wish to be wanted again. To not have to stare down the cold steel barrel of isolation once more, but to be held within your protective grace with nothing but time my only enemy.

For so long I awoke alone in this cold prison cell without you to hold close and allow your warmth to cut away the wicked tendrils of depravity that assail me from every front. But back then... The promise of one day returning you to your proper place by my side remained a vital spark that vaporized the pain that seeped into these aching bones.

Now that promise has long since faded away into the darkness. My outstretched fingers straining to brush the surface of your pearlescent skin. But to no avail. They're only figments teasing me through countless nightmares disguised as hopeful dreams. My eyes blinking through the grim facade as I awake to this dimming world.

I lack the vision, the skill to proceed. To carve myself a new life that's devoid of my tears.Instead I'm met with my own screams. the very essence of my pain distorting the sound and tearing violently at my vocal cords like some feral animal. Causing me to only bleed more, through heart and soul to tongue and mind.

My precious desolation... you know not of the traces you've left behind that ensnare my willing body. Encumbering me beneath a thousand pleading words. Betwixt your lack of reason. I yearn to whisk you away once more, to sweep you up into my arms and know that you are mine. That everything that has passed was only a haunted dream born from fever and lack of sleep.

I write because I have to. To pour these words spilt from torn lips in an attempt to prolong the inevitable. These words a million different i love you's torn asunder through rage and pride, depression and lust. Quickly I see every word fray and fall to pieces from lack of composure and mental control. This needle tongue stitching together words of increasingly erratic quality. The need to break down into unintelligable sobs a constant threat.

You may never understand the full depth of how you made me yours. Of just how well you brought me back to life.I can just hope one day in the future, you decide to glance back, a moment away from your perfect life...

And you catch a glimpse of just how far I've fallen.