Reasons,

"You said you were done with that."

Those words ring hollow within the dreaded confines of Jamie's head.

"It's the only way I can feel anymore..."

He raises his blue stained eyes up from the thick, bloodstained bandages that draped his forearms.

Painted upon Jessica's face is a saddened frown.

"That's a lie." She argues and Jamie stares at her. A look so cold Jessica felt it's icy grip latch upon her heart like a thousand frozen needles.

"Like you are one to talk..." He retorts with spattered venom.

"You've only witnessed the nightmare I have been forced to endure through. You have NO right to judge my situation based upon that."

Jessica is left aghast before Jamie.

He who had once been the most kind-hearted person she had ever had the pleasure of knowing. He who had always gone out of his way to protect all he deeply cared about. Sure his emotions were unstable but that was what made him so alive.

Until he suddenly let this twisted veil of darkness be cast upon his life and completely change the course of his existence forever.

He once was human. Now....

He was simply a hollowed shell of his former self.

"People still care Jamie. I care..." She whispers quietly and looked sadly at her feet.

Jamie watches her for a long moment before letting a scoff echo past his lips.

"No one cares. And those who do are simply casting a grotesque charade in a feeble attempt to keep a grip upon their long lost humanity."

Those words stung poor Jessica. Each word piercing her like a silver embedded bullet through her brain.

"This world we live in... it's hell Jamie. It's what it has always been." She looks back up and into his eyes, her muddy green eyes sparkling an inking of dying hope.

"Life has never been fair. All it ever has done was rip apart families and destroy what little hope we all manage to cling onto throughout our pitiful lives until the day we are inevitably torn away and thrown into the darkness of death. It's all one can do but to hold onto the few things that keep them happy and squeeze out those few droplets of happiness this damning existence can give us."

Her lip quivered. Her eyes beginning to shimmer with the faintest traces of tears.

"You may not see the things worth living for. But I do. There is always a reason to keep on pushing through within this life. God if I've found a reason to keep mine."

Jamie remains silent. Even after Jessica's words have long since faded into silence. All he did was keep his eyes trained upon her.

She reaches out a comforting hand.

He roughly pushes it away.

"There is no reason for me to stay alive." He then replies coldly. Every word slicing away at Jessica's heart like a jagged knife laced with morphine.

"There has never been a reason. Every moment I have ever spent upon this earth has simply been a fucking waste of time. If I had known this is all I would have to life for, I would have slit my throat years ago." He continues.

Unable to keep them at bay no longer, Jessica's face becomes lined with crystal laden rivers.

"None at all?" She silently begs.

He looks right into her eyes.

"None at all."

And with that he casts her a curt goodbye and heads on home. Leaving her standing there alone with only her broken tears to keep her company...

The next day Jamie gets dressed for school, excited to see how everyone will react to his bandaged arms. Barely able to contain his excitement for all the attention he'll get for a few measly cuts and brooding words.

Already yesterdays conversation with that girl Jessica long since forgotten.

And of her?

They found poor Jessica's body in the shower, wrists slit, shower slowly washing away the pool of blood that had formed beneath her.

And a note. Laid upon her bed. tear stained and crumpled, simply read,

"I lost my reason."